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Choosing Myself: A Journey to Freedom

Overcoming the Deep-Seated Fear of Serving-Self After a Lifetime of Serving Others

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Sean Goode
Apr 01, 2025
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A dream job, a huge paycheck, a promising future. Yet, I was paralyzed by fear. Not the fear of failure, but something deeper, something I'd never faced: the fear of choosing myself.

My life was built on service to others, a pattern born from childhood trauma. Their needs defined me, their affirmation, my safety. But a sabbatical revealed a truth: there was more to me than what I did. This revelation became a test, a choice between old patterns and new freedom.

In the full post, I detail the internal battle, the months of self-betrayal, and the surrender that followed. You'll discover the terrifying freedom of "I am," a realization that shattered my identity built on "I do." It's a journey from co-dependency to self-ownership.

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